explainations

lately, i have been getting the question "why?" asked of me. Why are you giving up facebook? why did you give up naps for lent? why did you like so-and-so? why are you wearing your ring again? why are you going to Kenya? why are you hanging out with those people? why are you not texting boys anymore? This blog is hopes to answer some of these.

First off, why am i writing this blog. Well, i just said to answer those questions. But a deeper answer is to provide an answer of hope in Jesus. It's great, because i could answer all those questions in just one word. Jesus. If you still don't get it. Let me give you 3 words. Jesus is enough. But for further explaination, read on.

WHY GIVE UP FACEBOOK? I am giving up facebook because, quite honestly, i was on it way to much. i was addicted. am addicted. and with the small measure of self-control i exercise, it was unhealthy. So i must build up that selfcontrol muscle before returning. For more blunt answer, i was on it more than i was with God. I would do my devos aprox 5 min then fb aprox 5 hrs. no exaggeration. what's more, is the people i would check up on would encourage me...but there were others that i should not have been checking up on that just brought me down. I dont want to be keeping tabs on people or wishing they would talk to me. Jesus is enough.

WHY GIVE UP NAPS FOR LENT? Naps were my way of dealing with my loneliness. instead of going to God, i would go to sleep. It kept me from doing the things i was supposed to do, like meet with friends, exercise, everything. So i gave them up to experience what God had for me in each day.And let me tell you, there was a lot i would have missed! I thought sleep would cover my loneliness and boredom. But it didnt. and giving up naps showed, Jesus is enough.

WHY DID YOU LIKE HIM?  Ironically, this question is gonna be answered in two different ways. One, why HIM, two why DID?
Why HIM. Because i saw Jesus in him. and i was lonely. And i thought that was what i wanted. For me, i thought a man who is in love with Jesus is enough.
Why DID? I found that Jesus is enough. For me. I dont need a man. I dont need to be affirmed by a man to know that i am special. i am loved by God. Jesus is enough.

WHY WEAR A RING? It is also twofold. One, seeing all the hardships of marriage and raising kids, im realizing that i am not ready for it so why keep myself open to it. Jesus is enough, i dont need a husband and kids for my value. Two, The Lord my Maker is my Husband. I AM married! to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Jesus is enough.

WHY GO TO KENYA? This is simple. Irony again in that the hardest question has the easiest answer. God said so. Take care of the orphans and widows in their distress. Well, to me specifically He said, go to the orphanage. I asked which one and He replied via txt from a pastor inviting me on this trip. Throughout the past months He has given me multiple signs of confirmation that i am to go. And not just in November, but in June.  With Chariots. This is not something i will back down on. Look how God has been faithful in all the other areas. He will take care of me in Kenya, especially because He called me there! Jesus is enough.

WHY THOSE PEOPLE? see "why did i like him." I see Jesus in them. they bring out the Jesus in me. They dont worry about what people think, if they look fake bc they love Jesus so much. Look at their life. They actually DO love and follow Jesus that much. Not only do they say Jesus is enough, they SHOW they BELIEVE Jesus is enough. and being with them, I too know, Jesus is enough!

WHY STOP TEXTING BOYS? What a great question to end with, because really, you can see the answer throughout all the others. Like facebook, boys are a big distraction (shocker right?:-p) So the less time i spend on them, such as texting them, the more time i have for God and my girlfriends. I made a list of 27 girls that i wish i spent more time with. And thats NOT including family....(therefore, the number would be MUCH higher because i do want to spend time with all of my family too!) like naps, texting boys take up the time i could spend with/text other girls. Like when i liked so-and-so, texting boys makes me think that this guy im texting is great because he is there and loves Jesus, but causes me to forget Jesus is enough. like wearing my ring simbolizes i am not ready to find my husband, my ceasing to text boys is a way to remind myself that i am not ready to think about being available to a guy any time he feels like texting me, nor is any guy mine to text at any time i want. Like going to Kenya, i know God will provide and take care of me even if i am not texting boys. God will still bring the right guy at the right time. Just like He has put this trip to Kenya in place at the right time and is the right place. like the people i am now spending time with, i want Jesus to shine through in all i do. not saying Jesus wouldnt txt girls, but i know He wouldnt with the heart that i have had...after all, Jesus's closest disciples were of the male gender just as Jesus was. I want to follow that example. Jesus is enough.