"Back to December"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjar7np_wuE&feature=topvideos

(the vid is to "Back to December by Taylor Swift," a song that just showed up again on my youtube list that i heard before.....and now it brought back the same emotions and thoughts....but also some new ones...here is the new thought, the ones that matter)

One of my "fb friends" (she is a real friend too, but just havent seen her in awhile, anyways) had a question up of "if you could time travel where would you go?" At first i didnt think much of it. Then i heard this song. First thought was to remember what it meant to me first: that i left a man that loved me more than i have ever felt. Newest realization, i left him more than once. I can't "go back to December" bc "December" was, well, according to him, about every two weeks.....So every two weeks I'm singing this song of coming back, but then leaving again. (Unfortunately, when i listen to Swift i remember all the good in him.....) This is the same old realization about this song.

The new realization is the reason for the post. How often is this how we treat Jesus? He gives all His love ("you gave me roses n i left them there to die"is such an illustration! Remember the cross? the crown of thorns....where He died.....but that was Him giving ALL for us....and how many just throw away that beautiful gift He gave us!) So Jesus did all of these wonderful things for us, and we take it for granted. then, when we realize how much He did for us, we wish we could go back in time and devote ourselves to Him sooner! My younger friends, PLEASE see this. I wish i would have realized this when i was younger. This is key. Your testimony is STRONGER when you STAY closer to Jesus! Let me say it again. You do not need to commit a "big" sin to have a good testimony! If you read about Paul, He uses the "human argument" and explains how if there was a person that lived right it was him. And yet he considered all his works NO GOOD compared to JESUS! Even if you think you lived too perfect of a life to be a testimony for Jesus, you are not! you still need Him and your testimony is still good! You get to say, "look, see the terrible things God has protected me from! I never was thrown into jail for stealing, never been bankrupt from gambling...." and look at all of the promises and good things God has in store for those that obey Him and follow Him! Heaven will be so sweet for those who turn their lives over to Jesus!
And for those that HAVE been thrown into jail for stealing, been bankrupt from gambling....Jesus came to cover that sin! He came so that you will not be eternally damned for it! yes you have your consequences, as we all do, but Jesus lets you live forever with Him! how wonderful! all you must do is repent, which simply means admit you did it, admit it was wrong, ask for forgiveness, and turn away from it. stop doing it. Stop saying "i wish i could go back to December and not **insert sin**" time and time again. i say this to myself as well, stop continuing in the ways of evil, for i am no longer in bondage to my sin nature, i can chose to turn away from it! "So this is me swallowing my pride, saying i'm sorry for that night" and then STOP running away from Him.

Ironically, in the middle of writing this blog, i wrote a song about this because i had a realization that my relationship with Christ parallels with my relationship with man in this way.