memorial day

So i have the song "Not where i belong" by building 429 stuck in my head. (probably because i was listening to it the entire drive home). Its so comforting to me, especially in the times that i feel the world we live in crashing around me. So some things i realized.
i love Jesus (obviously). i love encouraging. i love being appreciated. i love being loved. i love unity. i love being able to make connections with people....but sometimes they dont wanna connect with me. But that's ok, because this world is not my home and Jesus is more than enough for me. I just need to keep these things in mind and not forget that it doesnt matter what this world throws at me, Jesus is right there with me and holding my hand. He loves me more than any friend or spouse or parent could.

Woe is me

Woe is me for i cannot keep Your commands
Woe is me for always letting go of Your hands
Though i try to do what honors You
i always fail in the follow through
i tried to start a study of Your Word
but i guess everyone got bored
When did church become social hour?
 and the people not show His power?
i do not speak well my God,
but Your gospel of peace i shod
i long to bring it clear to all
but somewhere i just dropped the ball.
or was it not me but them instead
who want not to be fed?
regardless of fault of the end of the season
i shall continue my study with God as my reason
When i hear that it helps just one soul
i have to remember that is our goal
it's not about number that i can see
but about those hearts who change, and are freed

Lonliness

To be lonely is not simply being alone
but to be without comfort and wanting to moan
even in a crowded place
seeing many a familiar face
but not knowing what to say
other than the  "how's your day"
superficial conversation
when i want to scream my soul salvation
alone in this world and this life
all filled with darkness and strife
though when i remember my true Home
life looses it's pull to feel alone
i know where i belong and my soul is free
to find a husband is no longer the key
but to draw closer to the One who saves
focused on Him, i'm not alone in the caves
and when His other followers respond to HIm
i find in life my true kin.

so whether you are alone or lonely
if you love Jesus, you're there with me
lets all join hands and encourage another
to know the Lord and become our brother
though we may feel alone, with God we are not
Because through Jesus's blood we were bought
and nothing can seperate us from Him
not even our pain and suffering
of feeling lonely and so alone
Just look up to our Home.